It’s a few minutes past midnight as I type this, so yes, I know it’s technically not Sunday anymore. I meant to write this post earlier, but family time plus one-on-one time with the hubby kept me occupied. 😉 I’ve decided to try to join my friend and fellow homeschool mom, Dianna of The Kennedy Adventures, in her Saints and Scripture Sunday link-up every week, so here goes my first post. 🙂
I found myself really messed up/tired/worn out/overwhelmed/feeling helpless earlier this weekend, just after Lent began on Ash Wednesday, and just after Valentine’s Day. Ironically, it was a bit after my post on Philstar.com, about how to have a joyful Lent, came out.
Friday night found me breaking down and sobbing intermittently while my husband and I were putting the kids to bed — it was already way past their usual bedtime, and I was panicking at the thought of the articles I needed to write and edit that night. The thought of another virtually sleepless night was probably too much for my aching, tired mind and body to bear — and I just broke down. (Yep, in front of my kids, who kept telling me, “Stop crying, Mama.”)
Don’t get me wrong — I am grateful to have work, and to be able to pitch in with the family expenses. I am grateful to have sideline writing and editing jobs; the extra income goes to our Baby No. 3 fund, loan payments and savings. But I guess this past week, I just felt everything had piled up one on top of the other. I found myself ranting online to my fellow work-at-home moms (WAHMs) in our Facebook group and asking for their prayers.
After a few bites of chocolate though, and taking a few minutes to stop, breathe, pray and focus on the good things, I had a change of mind and heart. So early Saturday morning, I posted this on my Facebook page:
Just declaring my choice to be grateful, peaceful, loving, kind, gentle and present, especially to my kids, helped me a lot. 🙂 The show of support from my fellow WAHMs also encouraged me greatly, as did my husband’s loving rubs on the back and words of support. I thank God for all of these, really!
So yes, Lent didn’t start out the way I had hoped it to be. Apparently, neither did Dianna’s. Nor did Leanne’s (she’s one of Dianna’s friends). It was after reading Leanne’s and Dianna’s posts that I remembered that more than the “earthly battle” we all face every day — to “keep up with life” — we face a spiritual battle. And declaring my goals for Lent, plus reflecting on my refined goals for this blog (which I hinted at on my “About” page — rather lengthy I know, but I hope you can read it if you have the time) sort of make me a “target” for the enemy.
And so, I realized that I need to put on the armor of God at every time, especially when I am at my lowest. I also need to remember God’s promises in Psalm 91, one of my favorite psalms of all time, and the psalm on which my “theme song-cum-lullaby” for Tim is based, “On Eagle’s Wings.”
I’m thankful that there are other people out there, like Dianna and Leanne, my fellow WAHMs, my husband and other family members, who can help remind me of all these things. 🙂 I look forward to journeying the remaining days of Lent with each and every one of you, too, those of you who are reading this. Let’s pray for one another, shall we? 🙂