I have a confession to make. (Yes, another one. I know I’ve made these before, so please bear with me.)
I was a bit emotional on Monday morning while we were having our family prayer time, before my husband left for work — I started tearing up in the middle of our prayer, causing our kids to ask, “Mama, what’s wrong?” My husband already knew what was bothering me even before I said a word, and he gently reminded me that God is faithful, and He has never ever let our family down, ever. And I know, deep down in my heart, that what he said is true, and that my doubts and tears don’t do any good but still, I can’t help what I feel sometimes.
I know I try to be positive and upbeat and inspirational on this blog (and everywhere else, in general), but I am deciding to bare my soul today to you all, inspired by this honest post I read on Allison’s blog about writing the hard stuff. (Incidentally, Allison used to be one of my co-bloggers on World Moms Blog, and I personally love her writing!)
So (deep breath) here goes…
I am tired — mostly from wearing/carrying a baby around almost 24/7, while juggling homeschooling and other duties, including work (which I am still grateful for, Lord, yes I am, promise!)…
I am worried — mostly about our finances, and if I’m teaching my kids “enough,” and wondering if I’m doing right by them in all aspects…
I feel like I need a break. (Is this selfish of me? I know it isn’t but I still feel “bad” just typing this out.)
It’s been a little over a month since I’ve resigned from my fulltime job, and there are moments — albeit fleeting ones — when I wonder if I made the right decision. And yes, sometimes, to be totally honest, I miss the “peace and quiet” I get when I am at the office.
But then, I see my children’s faces and I try to focus on the present, on the now. On the blessing and honor of being their mother.
So I cast my cares upon Him.
This reflection by Sarah Young on FaithGateway is so apt for me today, so I’m sharing part of it with you all via a screenshot, in case you need to read these words, too (you can read the whole thing here):
I’m going to try to take a moment — probably many, many, many moments today, and every day — to breathe in the Father’s love.
I’m going to try to to rest in His grace daily.
I’m going to try to cast my cares upon Him constantly.
Won’t you join me?
How are you, dear friend? Are you feeling burdened today, too? I’d love to “talk” with you in the comments.