Yesterday, I submitted my first post as a contributor to Upside Down Homeschooling, an awesome site that provides homeschooling tips, encouragement and a whole lot more. I am so blessed to be part of it, and can’t wait to share my post with you all. I wrote about the fears that I’ve been having lately as regards our homeschooling. Of course, those aren’t the only fears I wrestle with. Just to give you a few examples:
- I’m afraid that our kids won’t grow up to know, love and serve God.
- I’m afraid that my being a “Monster Mama” at times will ruin our kids for life (though I’ve mellowed a bit since I’ve been trying to live out my One Word and Verse, and being part of an has been very helpful, too).
- I’m afraid of what will happen to our kids if — God forbid — something should happen to my husband and me.
- I’m afraid of losing my husband — shout-out to all the single parents out there: you guys are AMAZING!
- I’m afraid of dying early and leaving my kids mother-less. Though I have told them that if anything should happen to me and God wants to call Mama home early (yes, we talk about these things sometimes), Mama Mary will be there as their mother, just like she was for Blessed John Paul II.
- I’m afraid that we aren’t living healthily enough.
- I’m afraid that we won’t have enough money to pay for our payables every month and add to our investments and give to those in need.
Etcetera, etcetera.
It can be crippling, these fears all combined.
Well, you know what? I want out.
Starting yesterday, while writing my post for Upside Down Homeschooling, I told myself, Enough.
Enough of being afraid.
More of living in faith.
More of perfect love.
Admittedly, I don’t love others perfectly — including (and on most days, especially) my husband and my kids.
I don’t love God perfectly either — I struggle with having quiet time for prayer and God’s Word, and living out His commandments every day.
But I still choose to let go of my fears.
Once again, I strive for perfect love.
I invite you to join me in this journey towards perfect love! Feel free to comment below and share what fears you’re struggling with now — I shall include you and your concerns in my prayers!